A few weeks ago I went for a run, I had my Spotify play list on like usual. About halfway through my run, this specific song came on. Oath by Cher Lloyd. It's a song about best friends who will always be there for each other.
Now, I've heard this song tons of times and I love it, but it was always kinda odd because when I would hear it I would think of my sister. Like I said, it's a song about best friends, not family members. I could never really figure out why my sister always came into my mind when the song came on.
Then on my run it hit me like a brick wall.
My sister is my best friend, always has been, always will be.
Now, don't get me wrong. Throughout the years we have both had actual '' best friends ''. She's had her own, and I've had my own. But my sister is the only person who has ALWAYS been on my side for as far back as I can remember. We argued and disagreed like all sisters have/do, but no matter what, my sister has always been there for me.
Looking back at all the things we have been through, she's without a doubt my lifelong best friend.
My very first memory regarding my sister is actually before she was born. I was probably about 3 years old and my parents were dropping my brother and I off at their best friends house. My mom and dad were headed to the hospital to have my sister. I remember I was so upset/hurt that I got left behind that I just sat on the front step of their friends house for what felt like hours (but was really probably only 10 minutes). I remember just wanting to be with my parents and wanting to see my sister. I'm assuming we didn't get to go because my sister wasn't due for another 2 months (she was born premature) but I just wanted to be there.
When my sister was in elementary school and I was in middle school, we shared a room. At some point, my sister moved into the room across the hall. When we would get grounded (usually for something we were doing together) We would lay in our doorways and talk to each other. When my mom would tell us to stop talking, we thought we were the smartest kids for creating a rope/pulley thing, which we used to toss buckets back and forth with a paper that we wrote on so we could still talk (the rooms were directly across from each other, but too far away to just whisper).
I remember one of my first true nightmares was regarding my sister. In it, my sister and I were playing outside with our friends. Out of nowhere, this creepy guy starts running towards us, I tell to my sister to run inside the house and we both head towards the door. My sister trips though and the guy gets to her, grabs her and runs away. I remember freaking out hysterically in my dream, then waking up and running to her room to make sure she was still there. I'll never forget that dream.
We use to talk about how our life would be when we got older, and I promised her once I started driving and got my first job I would take her out on a shopping spree, that I would buy her whatever she wanted. We couldn't wait to grow up. (I never did take her out, but we called each other even because she promised to take me to NYC once I got out of debt and that didn't happen either :p)
When I was in high school and my sister was in middle school, we started fighting a lot. Over normal stuff though, to me she was my annoying younger sister, and to her I was her cool older sister. I remember even when we would argue, we never stayed mad for long. Like the night my sister had some friends over (maybe just one? Not sure), they were in my room and annoyed me so I yelled at them to get out and my sister yelled something back at me but did leave. About 2 minutes later she came back in asking to use some of my magazines. Instead of yelling at her again to get out, I went over to my stack and actually started recommending which ones I thought were the best. I remember her friend just thought we were crazy because one minute we were yelling, the next we were leaning over magizeens talking and laughing.
Then once I graduated, my sister became one of my closest friends. I could tell her anything and knew she wouldn't judge me, or tell my secrets to the world. My life was safe with her, I was safe with her.
My sister has always been there for me. The song really gets to me now because with my wedding coming up, I know my life will be changing significantly in the next few years. But like the song suggests, no matter where my life takes me or her life takes her, she will always have a home with me. No matter what.
I love you Alyssa, to no end.
Until next time,
Tiffany
''Wherever you go, just always remember
That you've got a home for now and forever.
If you get low, just call me whenever.
This is my oath to you.''
-Oath by Cher Lloyd
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